Please don't mind my grossness here. I am still sick on a daily basis. I truly forgot how hard pregnancy is on me. I am always really tired, always nauseous, always on the bring of throwing up. I constantly feel thirsty, but if I drink then I get sick. Food does not appeal to me at all. I'm living off of pasta and potatoes, cheese and an occasional Luna bar. Things like showers and laundry don't even seem very important these days, and poor Adelaide is going to loose her mind if she has to spend one more day stuck in the house with me. Thank God for Myles. He takes such good care of us and helps so much. I am still often left to wonder what we are doing in this amazing city, without family and close friends to help. I'm always wishing I could call up my sister, or trusted best friend to come by and take Adelaide for a walk while I nap. Where is this community that I long for, and why haven't I been able to find it here? Maybe it's because I'm just extra sensitive right now. Maybe it's because I'm just too paranoid to trust anyone with my child.....but it's something that I am working on figuring out.
Anyway - here is the baby's first heartbeat!!! xoxoxo sounds like heaven to me =) And it also makes me realize that all of these hard days we've been having are really for such a magical and amazingly good reason!
Also notice how rad it is that I get to lay on my midwife's comfy couch and do this rather than some cold Dr's office exam table. We are planning another home birth with the same midwife. I don't think I could go through this all again without her. She is truly one of my hero's.
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I wish that I could come over and take Adelaide for a walk too. I am sorry :( I love you guys and you are the most important thing so maybe it's time that I prove it!
Your the hero
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