Some of us are so Lucky

I don't even know where to start this blog. It's about the earthquake in Haiti. It's about us being so lucky. The part that breaks my heart the most are the little ones who are new orphans - babies and kids whose mommies, daddies, grannys, families died in the quakes, and they are left all alone, so scared with nobody there to hug and kiss them and tell them things will be okay. It just makes me so sad to think about them, and what will become. Nothing makes me sadder than to think of my baby all alone, scared and sad and wanting me or her daddy and us never coming back to her. So what do we do? I wish I could adopt hundreds of them, but of course that's not possible. So how much money can we send? Where will it go? Is Twenty enough, or $60, or $100? How much is enough? How much am I willing to go without and if I do, will it really help? What if we only eat the food that we already have in our house for the next two weeks? And what if I don't buy another toy or piece of clothing for Adelaide for 3 months...what if I sold my bike or even my car.....even that wouldn't be enough to help all of them, or even a few.

And what about the orphans in Darfur? What about the Lost boys of Sudan? What about all of the hungry little kids begging for money in Costa Rica, Panama or Mexico? This world seems so sad sometimes. I'm so lucky that I have such happiness and peace in my life.

I just went upstairs to nurse my sweet girl. She has her cozy warm jammies on, and her fuzzy blankie, and is sound asleep in our warm, clean bedroom, without a worry in this world. She doesn't know about the earthquake in Haiti, and I don't want to tell her about it right now. I just hope that if the day ever comes where she is faced with tragedy such as this, that she is strong, and also that she carries my love in her heart. I want her to know how much I love her, and that is impossible. I hope she understands that I don't ever want her to be alone. I understand that life can be hard, sometimes harder than we ever thought possible, but you can't give up. I just love her so much and these things really make me think about it even more than normal. Who would have ever thought that having a baby would have turned me into such mush? I'm so smitten with her, with Myles, I'm so lucky. I'm so thankful.